Christmas 2016

Christmas Time!

Being away from my comfort zone for the longest time is soooo difficult. But..... I still found happiness!!!  The last Christmas that I'll be celebrating away from home. Next year, I'll be back in the warm presence of my home.

This year is much easier for me. I had new friends, a new home buddy and I got much closer to the Lord. As the old ME, I can't visual myself being part of those worship services and engaging myself in a bible study group but here I am now, loving, embracing all of it! CONTENTED, BLESSED and FULFILLED.

I'm counting the days..  219 days left. LOL! 7 months and 5 days! 

Handa na ba kayo malanghap ang pollution at maexperience ulit ang wagas na traffic jam sa Pinas? 

Our Lord has a plan for all of us. We just have to listen, wait and follow. This day is His day. Whatever comes our way let's rejoice in Him! 

Happy Christmas everyone from my family to yours. Cheers!!! ❤

Friends

Friends. How can you define them?

Well honestly I have lots. Different attitudes. Different personalities. Different genders. Different ages.

But how can you tell if they are true or not?

Is it how they compliment you? Pwede din naman.. Kasi sino pa ba magbobolahan kundi magkakaibigan din.

Is it how they uplift you? Pwede din. Kasi who will pick you up when you feel the world is against you? Friends.

Is it on how they treat you? Para sken wala sa treatment yan. As long as that person is true to me I don't care kung murahin nila ko, walwalin nila pagkatao ko. As long as they will never talk behind my back.

Friends are one of the most precious blessings I have that is why I'm keeping them well. Hindi ko din sinusukat ang friendship sa tagal ng pagkakakilala ko saknila because I know when I see one. Nararamdaman ko yun kung totoo sila saken o nagkukunwari lang. Nasa paraan din un ng kung paano ka kausapin ng isang tao at nasa warmth ng pagtingin nya sayo.

Sa pag aassess ko ng sarili ko I'm a better friend than a lover. Mas passionate, mas sweet, mas cuddly, mas touchy, mas clingy at mas open ako sa kaibigan. Mas naipapakita ko pa ung totoong ako without getting afraid of being rejected or matturn off sila saken. Hindi ako takot mahusgahan. Sa lahat ng pinagdaanan ko sa buhay narinig ko na ata lahat ng masasakit na salita na ppwedeng ibato sa pagkatao ko. At hindi ko sila masisisi dun kasi yung ung nakikita nila.

Friends.. sila yung kahit bago palang kayo magkakilala you can easily open up for them. Yung komportable ka na kausap at kasama sila. Na kahit anung sabihin mo they will never judge you.

Friends.. on the long run. Sila yung kahit paminsan minsan lang kayo naguusap (please note the paminsan minsan hindi yung totally wala na) you know na nandyan lang sila at anytime na kailanganin mo ng makakausap ppwede mo pa din sila lapitan.

Friends.. wala yan sa estado ng buhay o edad. Nasa pagiging totoo at pagtitiwala yan sa isang tao. If you don't trust one person how can you say na totoo yung pinapakita nila sayo?

People come and go. Sabi nga nila kung may taong tatalikuran ka let them.. Wag mong pipigilan. Kasi dun mo malalaman kung sino yung matitira at never kang iiwan.

Tula

Isang bagsak,  puro halakhak
Ngumiti ng may kasamang halak
Sumipa at tumamang parang alak
Puso ko'y natutuwat nagagalak

Ligaya na dulot ng magandang salita
Namumutawi sa aking mga panata
Pag ako'y iyong muling makita
Di ka na muling manlalata

Ibig kong bigkasin mga kataga
O kaya'y mga talinghaga
Sa babaeng aking lubos ang hanga
Na walang ikukubling tunay na saya..

Sadya bang binigay ng tadhana
O ipinilit lang ang mga gawa
At di natin alintana
Mga bagay na nakakatuwa

Unang kita sayo'y may duda
Baka ako'y iyong iadya
Pero kabaligtaran ng asa
Sa iyo'y labis na namangha

Pinagmasdan kitang buong giliw

Walang kabig ipahiw
Kwentuhang walang maliw
Tunay na ika'y nakakaaliw

Katawang malusog

Mga ngiting mairog
Pwede sayo'y mahulog
Dahil puso'y yong binusog

Labis ang aking pasasalamat sa'yo

Ika'y dumating sa buhay ko
Nagkakulay ang mundo
Daglian iyong binago

Ikaw ang swerte sa kin
Utol kung ika'y tawagin
Laging bibigyan ng pansin
Karapat dapat mahalin..

>>from Kuya Dex (Tol)

Being a Certified ALDUB NATION

Paano nga ba ko nahook sa phenomenal love team?

I still remember it clearly. I was watching a random YT videos (August 2, 2015) and then I accidentally clicked on AlDub first meeting (July 16, 2015). Hindi ko namamalayan na pinapanuod ko na pala lahat ng videos nila. Even Maine's Dubsmash compilations and AlDub MVs. Dun sya nagstart. Hanggang hindi pwede matapos yung araw ko na hindi sila napapanood.

Sa tanghali I watch EB. Sa gabi naman nuon OTWOL at PBB. Eh nawalan ako wifi. Tipid ng data MB. Hanggang nawalan na ko ng gana at nagfocus nalang sa EB/KS. 😄

On that day I know that I am a certified member of ADN.

Paano nga binago ng ALDUB at ALDUB NATION ang buhay ko?

Simple lang.. Dumating ang ALDUB nun TP. Nung mga panahon na naguumpisa na ko matuto tumayo magisa. Nun panahon na unang beses ko malayo sa pamilya ko. Sila ung nagdagdag lakas para kayanin ko na lumaban araw araw. Binigyan nila ko ng dagdag inspirasyon.

Ang ALDUB NATION ang matatawag kong INSTANT talaga. Instant Friend. Instant Family. Sila yung dumamay sken nun mga panahon na naiisipan ko ng sumuko. Sila yung nakinig saken nun mga panahon na kailangan ko ng makakausap. Sa loob ng 7 months nandyan lang sila. Magkakaiba man kami ng trabaho pero lagi kaming may oras para sa isa't isa. Nun mga panahon na wala akong malapitan o makausap sila yung dumating. Sila yun nagpapalakas ng loob ko para kayanin ang buhay OFW araw araw.

Kaya kahit anong mangyari. Hinding hindi ko tatalikuran at iiwan ang pamilya na 'to. 🙋

How this Phenomenal LT influence me?

This young couple taught me to stay strong even how worst the day is. They inspires me to struggle at wag mag give up sa mga decisions na gusto kong maachieve. Sila yung nagmulat sken na God really has a perfect timing for everything! Sabi nga ni Alden "Keep the Faith". Kaya kahit ganu hirap at lungkot dito kinakaya ko. Kasi naisip ko yung mas bata sken nakakaya nila how much more ako na may KHALIL na paghuhugutan ng lakas. 😁

How my EVERYDAY goes by?

I woke up at 6 30. Bathing, taking bfast, giving baba food. At 8:30 hawak ko na fone ko kasi nakaabang na ko sa LS ng KS. Hanggang 9:30 na yun. After nun nakatutok na ko sa twitter. Abang abang sa BTS. Then TP happened. Grabe tutok ko nun. 41M tweets. Kahit iilan lang naitweet ko nun kasi PA pa gamit ko ramdam ko pa din na parte ako ng history na yun. 😊

December 10, 2015 I joined Ofc AD|MD Nation. At dun na ko nakikisabay sa lahat ng pakulo ng bawat FCs. Hindi na ko makabitaw. Kahit napupuyat ako makapagtweet lang. Haha!

Paano magbonding ang ADN thru social media?

Ganito.. Big accounts like AD Elites, Barakos, OAT, MaiDen, AlDub Pilipinas, AD Attys/MDs, Team Ambassadors, aboutaldub, NicoZey, ALDUBBigBoyz, SumasarabeBoys, atbp.. Magpapagames or trivia or question & answer portion. O kaya they will post something tas pagnagQT o reply ka they will answer back. Nakakatuwa lang ng sobra kasi instant friends. Kahit di ka fnfollow or di mo fnfollow nagkakaron ng interaction. Walang snob. Walang ere. 😁

Ang ADN binubuo ng iba't ibang uri ng tao, iba't ibang age bracket, iba't ibang personalities. Pero pag dating sa social media lahat kami pantay pantay. Meron man naligaw ng landas o may damong ligaw.. May bumabalik pa din. 👋

Masaya ko maging part ng ADN. Kasi kahit san sulok ng mundo may kaibigan akong matatawag. Bagong kaibigan. Bagong pamilya. Bagong self discovery.

Paano ako bilang ADN?

Hmmm.. Lagi kami nireremind ng admins namin na only spread GVs. Kaso pag lumabas ka at madami ka nakita at nabasang negatrons mapapapikit ka nalang at bibilang ng 1-10 kesa patulan. Nuon nangaaway pa ko eh. Ilan na din namblocked sken na tards. Haha! Pero sabi nga nila A&M spread GVs.

"dont bash what you hate instead spread what you love". 2 people younger than some of us at napapasunod nila ko/kami sa simpleng tweet lang nila. That is something.

Lagi ko sinasabi sa GC na may it be reel or real.. Marating man nila yun forever ng magkasama o hindi.. Mananatili akong ADN. I'll give them my 100% loyalty as a fan. At kahit anong mabasa at madinig kong nega sa kanila lang ako maniniwala. Kelangan madinig ko muna from them bago ko sabihin na totoo. 😄

As day passes by.. Nawawala man ang kinang ng dating ADN, umaasa at naniniwala pa din ako na in time maibabalik din namin yung dating samahan namin. Yung time na masasabi namin ulit na "UNITED ALDUB NATION" . Di ako nawawalan ng pag asa. Hanggang intact ang quota namin 1M tweets per day. Hanggang madaming big at small accts na nagpapakalat ng GVs. Kakapit pa din ako sa pemily na nagbigay sken ng dagdag inspirasyon. 👊

Kahit na pawala na ang ALDUB / ALDUB NATION kasi padating na ang MAICHARD / MAICHARD NATION. HAHAHA

Dalawang tao na pinagbuklod ng Tadhana.
Dalawang tao na nagbuklod sa buong ALDUB NATION dahil sa Tadhana.
Mula sa bawat sulok ng mundo..
Mananatiling matibay at matatag ang Pamilyang pinagbuklod ng AlDub! 🙋
 
CERTIFIED ALDUB NATION FOREVER! 🙌

My 2015

2015 ended! Happy New Year! 🎉

Hmmm.. Anu nga ba nangyari nung past 2015 ko?

2015 is not that adventurous for me like the other previous years. All I did was to wake up early, watch cartoons, update my SN, and stay at home the whole day.

But this year is a very challenging year for me. As a first time mom I need to learn how to have more patience. Wake up during wee hours. Which I haven't done before. As they say "tulog mantika" LOL! 2015 made me a different person.

I learned to give. I learned to forgive. I learned to let go. It taught me how to persevere and to strive harder. 2015 made me a better person. I became matured and responsible. Hindi katulad dati I always think of myself first. Keber sa iba. Yung basta I'm happy with what I am doing wala na kong pakielam. I was born as a free spirited girl until Khalil happened. Kaya ngayon si Khalil muna bago sarili ko. As long my daughter is happy then I am happy. As long as she is doing good then I am good.

To my family.. I am very lucky to have you. All the love that I'm giving now comes from you. If I don't have you, I will lose myself. For that.. Thank you so much andd I love you dearly.

For all my friends who stayed.. Thank you! You don't know how much this means to me. You are like a family to me. Since I cannot share "everything" to my family. I still have you to share it with. Sentiments, dramas and such. LOL!

To my new found friends.. I just hope that you will stay as a part of my life. Kahit pa most people come and go. Naniniwala pa din ako na some people are meant to stay.

To my Khalila.. you are my inspiration. The reason for my everything. I know I am not struggling alone because I have you. You keeps me going. You are the source of my strength. Kakayanin ko yung 2 years na malayo sayo kasi I know that you're just there waiting and holding on to me.

To my dear God.. Thank you for making me a stronger person. Hindi na po ako kagaya nung dati na madaling mag give up. Yung puro happy happy lang. Na pag may challenges or problem that comes along my way iiwasan at tataguan ko nalang. Now I can face my fears confidently. Kasama na po yung fear of heights and sepanx. Hehe! Thank you G!

I don't believe in new year's resolutions. I only believe that if one person is willing to change he/she will. Not just because it's new year. Changing depends on the willingness of one's person.

From my family to yours.. Happy Happy New Year! May the year of 2016 brings much joy and more blessings in our life.

38.. 39.. Parteeeeeey! Hahaha! 🎉🎉🎉

Christmas 2015

Since I did not make any entry for last year. Ibubuhos ko ngayon. LOL!

Christmas message like this has been my yearly habit. Yearly I have my special blessings. Last year (December 2014) I didn't had the chance to thank the people who never leave me during my greatest downfall.

So to my FAMILY specially my MOM and to my FRIENDS from the deepest heart I'm truthfully grateful that you never left my side. And I'll be forever thankful to You G for giving me Khalila Antoinette. My REAL FOREVER!

This year (December 2015) is far more different from my previous years 'coz for the very first time I'll be spending my Christmas away from my comfort zone. Away from the beautiful Christmas decors, sparkling Christmas lights, colorful gift wrappers, Christmas rush, last minute Christmas shopping, Christmas gifts and all sorts. But most of all, away from the warm love of my HOME.

But still I have so many wonderful things to be thankful for.. I got a job before my daughter's first birthday. I can now provide for her needs. I'm helping my family. And I can save also for the future. That my family is doing good. That my daughter is growing up really fast (sabi ko nga "anak.. dahan dahan lang.. di naman ako nagmamadali. 😜) I gain new friends for keeps. (Like what I always believe.. People that comes along your way has its soul purpose.) I found my daily good vibes and cure for homesickness. And lastly, I know that I always have G beside me.

I may have my short incomings as a person but I'm still struggling for the better. My life now is overflowing with blessings. I couldn't ask for anything more. 😂

So for now let's all endure and feel the spirit of Christmas. We may be far from home but we know deep within our hearts that they are reachable.

Happy Happy Birthday Bro! 🙏

Merry Christmas Everyone! 🎅🎄🎁

New Start

2014 has been a very rough and tough year for me. I tripped. I fell. I cried. I thought of endless pain. But.. I learned. I stand up. I felt loved. Now I can say that I am much.. Very much stronger than before. That same year an angel came through me to complete my life. The reason why I'm struggling to prove something to anybody. The reason why I want to win in this battle of life. The reason why I want to live. The reason why I found my forever. Yes! Now I have a real angel with me. My daughter!

Noon akala ko hindi ko kakayanin.. Akala ko pagnakita ko sya mahihirapan akong magadjust. Pero when I held her in my arms naiyak na lang ako.. Kasi sabi ko "finally. Magkakaron na ng reason lahat ng bagay sa buhay ko." MY REASON FOR EVERYTHING! Simula ng dumating sya everyday akong nagpapasalamat kay G kasi He gave me the most wonderful and most priceless blessing I could ever have. That is why I am eternally grateful. Alam ko naman na hindi ako magiging perfect mom. Pero para sakanya handa ako magsacrifice kahit gaano pa kahirap yon. Kasi kagaya ng palagi kong sinasabi EVERYTHING IS WORTH IT AS LONG AS IT'S FOR MY KHALIL.

As 2015 opened a new chapter of my life.. Dun ko narealized lahat ng mga bagay na natake for granted ko noon. Dun ko din nalaman at naramdaman na I am super and beyond blessed. I have friends na never ako iniwan at tinalikuran. I have my family na never ako pinabayaan at never napagod na suportahan ako. Specially my mommy. Because of what happened dun ko naramdaman ng todo how much my mommy loves me. Kahit na madami kaming issues.. Never did once she turned her back on me. Kahit super laki ng nagawa kong kasalanan at super laki kong disappointment sknya.

And lastly I have my khalil now. Yung makakasama ko gang tumanda ako. I will do my best para magampanan yung pagiging mommy at daddy nya all at the same time. Gusto ko lumaki si khalil na close as in tight yung closeness namin. Like we share secrets how deep or how shallow it may be.

My world is now revolving for Khalil. But ofcouse for G! Sabi nga nila people come and go. Ang through those years I proved them right. Kasi madami man akong na gain na friends before.. Pero madami ding nawala nun panahong I am at my weakest. At thankful ako kasi lahat ng natira saken yung alam kong never akong ijjudged kahit pa gaano ako kasira ulo at kahit gaano pa ko kabaliw. Hindi ko na iniisip yung past ngayon kasi sabi nga nila it cannot be changed. I need to move forward and just accept it all.

All I wanted to do is to give my daughter a peaceful environment that's full of happiness. Magagawa ko lang yun kung nakalimutan at natanggap ko na sa sarili ko lahat ng mga nagawa kong kasalanan. Di ba nga before you learn to forgive others.. Learn first to forgive yourself.

Now.. I am opening a new chapter of my story. Pero ngayon iba na yung prologue.. Kasi I have my khalil now and nobody could take her away from me. Because of her I feel complete every single day. ❤

Thank you so much Bro for having her in my life. Kung hindi Mo binigay sa akin si Khalil malamang happy go lucky pa din ako until now. Yung immature, walang direction, walang pangarap. Now that she's here. Everything made sense. 😍